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| 04:29pm 13/04/2006 |
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In less than an hour I will be on my way to Danielle's house... I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. Mike gets off work in a half hour, then we're on our way. Tonight we will be staying at Dee's. Probably some horrific scary movies, lots of laughing so hard I cry, and if everything goes well, another trip to the Blair Witch Project!!!! dun dun dun... Tomorrow will consist of Downtown GR with Amy, Dee, and Michael... I think Steph and gang also?? Coffee shops, vintage/boho stores, and more laughing so hard I cry, I'm sure. Then somewhere around dinner time, Michael and I will head off to Crystal Mountain Resort. There he will meet the rest of my family. We will stay there tomorrow night. Saturday will consist of an easter egg hunt at the resort, swimming, dying eggs, filling easter eggs (for the 2nd easter egg hunt Sunday!), a trip to the art park, and some family bonding. Sunday there will be presents, another huge easter egg hunt with my family, and a brunch. Then, it's home where the rest of vacation will consist of more work hours than are probably legal...
But at least spring break is off to a good start.
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| Nature plots revenge |
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| 10:17pm 24/03/2006 |
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I had something in mind to write about but I got distracted on the phone and now I can't remember what I wanted to write about... Bummer. Must have been important....
Had a very crappy and very wonderful day all in one. It was an alternating thing though. School = yuck, Mike = wonderful, school(again) = yuck, Mike (again) = wonderful, school(again!) = yuck, Mike(AGAIN!) = wonderful!, work = double yuck, home = okay.
We had fun today. =) It was incredibly dorky and funny and cute. I seriously love that boy. Right now he is singing "Don't Laugh at Me" in a weird hillbilly/southern accent... it's adorable. haha.
Tomorrow, work 12-4, possibly going to look at a couple horses, and possibly going to buy a birthday present for Josh with Rachel. I love that girl. =)
Anyway, I'm going to go talk to Michael now. More later... maybe I'll remember what I wanted to write about... or maybe something semi-interesting and bloggable will happen? |
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| She doesn't understand what's wrong with kids today... |
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| 10:29pm 21/03/2006 |
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Had a pretty happy moment today where I just sat back and thought about some photography that I have been working on. I sat for about an hour before I realized that I had just spent "me" time. It was wonderful. I was very ambitious today and cleaned out my closet... like REALLY cleaned out my closet. Anyone who knows my organizational skills will understand what a feat that was. It took me foooorever. But whatever, it's pretty now!!! My design project is almost finished and I'm obsessed with it, honestly. I reaaaally like how it's turning out. I just want it to be done so I can start a new one. I will scan it and put it up on DeviantArt as sooooon as it's done, for anyone who wants to see. I'm also waiting on a new roll of film that should have some really nice photographs that I'll be adding too. I have been really really lazy about doing aaany type of art lately, but I'm starting to get back on track because I think I may be moving in 2007 and I would reeeeally like to get into an AI in the area... which means lots and lots of portfolio work for me this year. It's coming along quite well though if I do say so myself. :) Aaaanyway, I'm putting up a retouch I did tonight, so I'm going to do that and go to bed.
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| I'll be the greatest fan of your life... |
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| 10:08pm 17/03/2006 |
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mmmm..mm...mmmmm... Goo Goo Dolls... I seriously have no problem admitting that I have fallen in love with them. No joke. It's ridiculous... the strands in your eyes that color them wonderful... gotta love 'em. I've been working my badonkadonk off this week at work... My schedule looked kind of like this: Sunday - church, horse shopping, barn, home; Monday - school, home (babysit), barn; Tuesday - school, home, church; Wednesday - school, mike, work; Thursday - school, home (babysit), work; Friday - school, Mike, work; tomorrow - Work, home, barn... Exciting isn't it? My life pretty much consists of working, horses, school, and Michael. Although I can't complain at all about the latter. I got nicknamed "Hands" at work today because of my reflexs like a cat... or perhaps a sloth. haha. But in my defense, my hands were full!! But I kind of met the new/returning cook and he seems cool. The cooks are my booooys. I've kind of been doing the whole vegetarian thing again lately (...sorry Rob!) not entirely, but a lot of my meals are meat-free. Lots of veggie subs, hummus, pita bread, cheese, and guacamole lately. yum yum yum. We got 3 new horse since Caddy died. Did I mention Caddy died? Cause he did. *pouts* But we got Elliot to replace him, but Elliot ended up having cancer (discovered of course only AFTER I had fallen completely in love with him) So based on the sellers agreement, he was returned because he didn't pass his vet check. Then we bought Logan. Who I have yet to see more than ten minutes of. Then my dad bought Thing 1 and this colt who we haven't named yet. But by colt I mean a 7 year old STALLION who just hasn't been used for breeding. We're going to geld him, but he should be a real piece of work, since he will probably always ACT like a stallion. Gelding at seven just makes them unable to reproduce, it doesn't affect the behavior of the horse. But whatever, I'm pumped.
What else has been up? uhm, uhm, uhm... not a lot, I guess. Life's pretty uneventful lately, but I dig it. aaaanyway, mike's on the phone soooo I'ma go! |
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| 09:40pm 11/03/2006 |
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SURVEY
1. do you like anyone?: Mike.
2. do they know it?: one would think...
IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU. . .
4. Had someone buy you something?: uhm... Mike does it on his own... My dad, I guess.
5. Bought something?: yes
6. Gotten sick?: yes
7. Been hugged?: mmmhm.
8. Felt stupid?: yeah.
9. Talked to an ex?: practically daily.
10. Missed someone: mmhm.
11. Failed a test: nope... I don't think I've even HAD a test in the last month, haha.
12. Ate cereal: yeah.
13. Danced crazy: Most likely. I danced in the kitchen of Papa John's the other day... and in Target... mostly because my boyfriend is a nerd...
14. Lied?: probably. I tried to lie to my dad at dinner and he was like "Why do you even bother? You suck."
UNIQUE
16. Any nervous habits?: I peel my cuticles, sometimes until they bleed, and act like I'm really intensely interested in ANYTHING but what makes me nervous.
17. Are you double jointed?: nope.
18. Can you roll your tongue: yes
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: kind of. Not very much higher than the other one.
20. Can you cross your eyes?: yeah
21. Do you make your bed daily?: almost. I think I've missed like one day in the last 2 weeks.
HAVE YOU EVER. . .
23. Said "I Love you" and meant it: Yes
24. Given money to a homeless person?: yeah... and a sandwich!
26. Waited all night for a phone call that never came?: Kind of.
27. Snuck out?: Yep
29. Do you swear?: At work A LOT.
30. Do you ever spit?: mhm.
31. You cook your own food?: Yes.
32. You do your own chores?: yeah.
33. You like beef jerky?: its ok
34. You like pepsi or coke?: Pepsi.. but lately pop has been not that appealing.
35. You're happy with your hair?: sure.
36. You own a dog?: Yes. A boxer/bull mastiff. She's a tank.
37. You spend your money wisely?: Kind of, since most of it goes in the bank. But I BLOW the money I do spend.
38. Do you like to swim?: LOOOOVE!
39. Gotten bored when you call a friend?: Oh geez yes.
40. Are you patient?: not really.
DO YOU PREFER
41. flowers or chocolate: flowers... lilacs are my favoritest thing ever.
42. gray or black?: black
43. Color or black and white photos?: black and white
44. lust or love?: love, for sure.
45. sunrise or sunset?: doesn't matter, they're both fun.
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: I don't eat either very often but they're both okay.
N0N VALENTiNES DAY Q`S
1. Are you in a relationship?: yes
2. If so, who with?: Michael
4. Do you believe in love at first sight?: not really.
5. what about true love?: yes
6. Would you kiss on the first date?: yeah, if I like the guy.
7. Do you look for one night stands?: No
8. Do you enjoy receiving flowers?: I do sometimes.
9. Do you enjoy gifts from your girl/guy: I like cute little stuff. Just like "I was thinking of you" things. Nothing expensive cause then I feel bad!
VALENTINES QUESTIONS
1. do you have a valentine?: Mike
2. do you like having a valentine?: I guess.
3. does someone like you currently?: Mike?
4. are you even worried about the upcoming holiday?: it's passed, but I wasn't
6. whats the best gift to receive on the day?: *shrugs*
7. Is a little kiss during school on vday ok?: Uh, yeah?
8. have you ever gotten something from someone on the day?: yup.
9. has anyone ever broken on your heart on vday?: I broke up with a guy on VDay once, but it didn't bother me much.
10. if you and your valentine were alone on the holiday, what would you do?: Dunno... hang out?
11. what does valentines day mean to you?: Nothing, I hate it.
12. does valentines day ever make you feel upset, happy, or angry?: annoyed
13. where would you like to be on vday night?: with Mike. |
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| the strands in your eyes that color them wonderful... |
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| 03:45pm 07/03/2006 |
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So I kind of, sort of met the new girl in his life today. I wanted to hug her and tell her to run now. She is clearly dealing with a looot of stuff. Who knows how much of it is her over reacting and how much of it is honestly bad life situations, but the last thing in the world she needs is him. I could tell that he treats her the way he treated me and it bothered me. But I won't say anything, because she'll probably try to talk it out with him and then it'll come out that I warned her to stay the hell out of that mess. If I did that and he knew, I'm positive I'd just get pulled into it and I'm pretty much done with that. I feel bad for her though, I really do. Maybe that makes me a bad person because I know she's making a huge mistake and I'm not stopping her. But she probably wouldn't listen anyway. I didn't. But I do wish that there was something I could do or say without getting myself involved.
This week has been just about the longest week of my life already. But tomorrow is a half day and I get to hang out with Mike, most likely, so that pretty much makes my life. I'm so ready to be done with school. I need to find a temporary, but full-time summer job. I'm getting desperate for money because there is a lot of stuff I need to take care of before I go off to school and I'd really like to have some money left in the bank in case anything comes up. I don't know. Maybe I should whore myself out, haha. Or maybe my mom will stop whoring herself out and pay me back all the money she took out of my bank account. That would be bum diggity, because I would pretty much be set financially for awhile. I wouldn't have much to worry about if I had that money to back me up... unless of course my dad insists on me buying the bonney if I want to take it to college because then I'd still be fucked. But I think Barb will let me keep it either way, because she got mad at him because he said he was thinking about not paying my insurance anymore, so that I would learn money management/have more responsibilty. She said she thinks that's stupid because they struggled through college and she wants me to have a leg up when I go. So that's cool. I don't know... I'll figure things out either way... I'd probably buy something else though. The insurance on that car would kill me. I think I need to be prepared to buy my own car by next fall anyway, because I suspect that my dad will probably refuse to let me take the car if I go through with what I think I will probably do next year. Who knows... I guess we'll see then, and I'm not going to spend much time worrying about it. Buuuut... I'm also not going to be completely unprepared for it either because if he says something sarcastic like "well, good luck finding a car to take" I'd die to be able to be like "Actually, I have that taken care of."
I'm positive everything is going to work out. I've been so incredibly blessed lately. I've got everything I could ever ask for in life. It's wonderful.
Anyway, I've got some stuff to do before tonight, so I should go. :) |
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| 06:27pm 04/03/2006 |
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So for those of you who were curious... I did make a college decision. Or rather, Mike basically spoon fed me the answer. We talked it out and he said he figures that it is better for me to go to CMU and he could tell I really, really wanted to, so that's what we should do. So, I told my parents that I was going, which was a hurdle. Then came the next hurdle... telling them Mike wanted to come. Sooo, I went for a walk with Barb and told her first. She was really cool with it. I was impressed. We had a really good talk and she really pointed out some things to me that I never even thought about. She told my dad before I got a chance to, and I don't know if she had to talk him down or anything, but he was really cool about it with me and Mike. He came home that day and Mike was over and he told us both that he was okay with it if that was what we were sure we wanted. Which we are. Then the job/housing thing came up. I managed to a find a reasonably priced apartment complex that will let him have his bird. Then he found out his job probably wouldn't transfer and that made me really nervous again. But then today, he got a new job working for a company that has a couple offices in/near the Mt. Pleasant area, making FAR more money than he is making now. So basically, everything is falling perfectly in place. It's actually amazing to me how well this is all working out for both of us. I expected faar more problems, but so far there hasn't been a single glitch in the plan. Even my dad is starting to get more comfortable with Mike and I's relationship and is starting to befriend him. He doesn't even talk down about him like he usually does with my boyfriends/dates.
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| 10:59pm 27/02/2006 |
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In 2004, I posted a list of the top 10 things I found sexy. It kind of amused me so I thought I would update it to my new tastes.
2004:
10. Playing footsie
9. Dyed hair
8. Shaved heads
7. Musicians/artists
6. Passions
5. Hands
4. Rainstorms
3. Piercings
2. Transylvanian Kisses
1. Him
2006:
10. Hands in my hair
9. Forehead Kisses
8. Running my hands over a shaved head while kissing
7. Musicians/artists
6. Seeing a guy enjoy something he is passionate about
5. Warm breath on my ear
4. Gentle biting
3. The feeling of bare skin on bare skin
2. Transylvanian Kisses (I know, it's disgusting, but its a guilty pleasure)
1. Michael Anthony
My tastes have changed a lot. Far more affectionate now, haha. |
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| 09:53pm 20/02/2006 |
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Warning: This is mostly me venting because I can't make a decision and don't know what to do... And since the only person who will read this is Erin... uhm... hi, my love! <3 Thanks for caring... or at least reading.
Okay. College. What the fuck? How on earth am I supposed to know RIGHT NOW, what I want to do in six months? Or in four years? I haven't even decided what I want to do tomorrow yet. Hell, I'm not sure what I'm going to do after I finish writing this. And I mean, a year ago I had it all figured out. But then came all the pressure. First off, I was pretty content with the idea that I would just go as far away as possible, get a degree, and slave away in a studio for the rest of my life. I wanted a job. I didn't want a family or a husband or even a great social life. I wanted to be an artist. And that's it. But then, there was all this pressure from my parents. My mom wants me there. My dad wants me here. And they all have opinions about what I should be doing for the rest of my life. Sometimes we all forget its my flippen life we are discussing, not what brand of toilet paper to buy. And the guilt. If I had a dollar for every guilt trip that's been put on me the last couple months, I wouldn't have to go to college because I'd have enough money to retire now. So then the acceptance letters come. Every school I applied to. I pitched Ferris because I don't want to go into healthcare anymore. *gag* boring. I couldn't handle it. So then Im looking at Central, Baker, or the completely unappealing MCC. Now lets go over my goals again: A. Far Away B. Studio Job. So I'm thinking... maybe I'll apply to the Art Institute of Chicago... my art teachers think I could get in. I'm scared and I put it off. Then... Oh joy!... I meet someone. Not just some one I could easily put aside. This irks me. To this very minute I have yet to figure out how some one has so easily made every game I play seem useless. How he got to me, I will probably never know. But the problem is... he did. So now I have this to think about. Do I leave the one person who has ever really made me care? It seems foolish to do that. I mean, I ache if I even think about leaving him. And then the whole studio thing... that will be so time consuming... I'd live my job... that was the whole point... but is that what I want now? So then... MCC seems natural right? Then I can be here, with him, and figure out what the hell I want to do. So I suck it up and say I'll go. Then I mention Chicago to him in passing. (I actually intended to never bring it up, because I didn't ever want him to think that he was holding me back from something. But well... we all know how well I keep secrets and lie.) He thinks I should apply. Not just there, but everywhere. He says he'll come with me. Anywhere I want to go. Sooo... then options open back up. It's almost March. I'm desperate to get out of the house. I want more independence and freedom. So I start thinking I'll apply to Chicago... unfortunately that falls through. But then i start thinking Central might not be so bad. Then I'd be away, but not too far. He could transfer his job and everything, they have a branch there. They have a great art education program. Less hours, less living my job, but still something I would be passionate about. So I start taking this into serious consideration. And then I start noticing little things, like how well he is settling in here. (he just moved here in october) And how great his new friends are. And I ask him if he's sure he would want to move. And he says he refuses to tell me what he wants because he doesn't want that to be taken into consideration at all. (Which I, of course, take as "Hell no, but I don't want to tell you no." But in all honesty I can't really know what he means.) Then he gets promoted and starts making better money... and then I start feeling guilty. I want to go away so bad. I want to go to central. But I can't make him leave. He's got friends and a great job... who knows if his position would transfer? He's thinking about going back to school even. So what do I do? I could stay here and hate every minute of it. Or I could go and never know what I may have taken from him in doing that. The sad part is, I will probably stay just because I don't want to make a decision for him that he might not like. And everyone keeps saying "It's your decision, Anne." And damn it, I KNOW that. But I'm not ready for it. Not at all. I mean, I have a hard time choosing a restraunt and then choosing what to eat once I get there. I can't make major life decisions. I wait til the last minute and then just pick something at random when it comes down to it. But you can't really do that with your future. So how am I supposed to make a major life choice not just for me, but also for him?
I don't know what I'm looking for. Maybe advice, maybe to vent... maybe I'm hoping some one will pop out of the woodwork with the right choice... I don't know. But that's the theme of my life lately. "I don't know." |
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| 10:07pm 14/01/2006 |
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So mostly I never update my LJ anymore, because of Myspace. But I've decided I'd rather update my livejournal, because I always have people on my Myspace list that I have to hide shit from and I have nothing to hide from my LJ friends list. So yeah... you actually get an entry, guys. Let's see... I went home on Christmas break. That was cool... I got to see Robby and Mum and Ron and Max... there were a few people I didn't get to see, so that was sad... Ron and Max, holy shit do I miss those fools. I think that's probably the most relieving feeling ever. Honestly, I was nervous, because I hadn't been there for ages, I didn't know if it would be the same. I didn't know if I could disappear one day, not show up for 2 years, and still have everything be like I had never left. Foolish me. We didn't miss a beat. I love them for that. It was like I went out of town for a little while or something. They talked about shit that I wasn't there for and I talked about shit that they weren't there for... but there was no awkward moments or anything. As a matter of fact, after I had been there for about 5 minutes and hugged the hell out of them, it was back to the old "fuck you" talk. I missed it, I'm not going to lie. Since I've left, I've not met one person who I could love so much but still talk so much shit to. Our entire relationship basically consists of us saying rude shit to each other until someone (usually me) ends up seeming actually offended and then saying something along the lines of "Suck it up, you cunt, you know I love you." They're like... family, practically. Ugh... I miss the fuck out of them already and I've only been home for a couple weeks. I'm so pumped that they're moving closer soon. There's a lot more going on, but I'm really sick of smelling Ruby Tuesday and smoke, so I need to shower. More soon though. |
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| 05:03pm 04/12/2005 |
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Put a number next to movies you've seen. If you put more than 70, you're a movie whore.
(1)Napoleon Dynamite
(2)Saw
(3)White Noise
(4)Anger Management
(5)50 First Dates
(6)Jason X
(7)Scream
(8)Scream 2
(9)Scream 3
(10)Scary Movie
(11)Scary Movie 2
(12)Scary Movie 3
(13)American Pie
(14)American Pie 2
(15)American Wedding
(16)Harry Potter
(17)Harry Potter 2
(18)Harry Potter 3
(19)Tomb Raider
(20)Resident Evil
(21)Resident Evil 2
(22)The Wedding Singer
(23)Little Black Book
(24)The Itallian Job
(25)The Village
(26)Donnie Darko
(27)Lilo & Stitch
(28)Finding Nemo
(29)Finding Neverland
(30)13 Ghosts
(31)Signs
(32)The Grinch
(33)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(34)White Chicks
(35)Butterfly Effect
(36)Thirteen going on 30
()I,Robot
(37)Dodgeball
()Universal Soldier
(38)Lemony Snickets A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(39)Bridget Jones Diary
(40)Bridget Jones: The Edge Of Reason
()Along Came A Spider
()Deep impact
(41)KingPin
(42)Never Been Kissed
(43)Meet The Parents
(44)Meet The Fockers
(45)Eight Crazy Nights
(46)A Cinderella Story
(47)The Terminal
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(48)Passport to Paris
(49)Dumb & Dumber
(50)Dumb & Dumberer
(51)Final Destination
(52)Final Destination 2
()Amityville Horror the original
(53)Halloween
(54)The Ring
()The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(55)Practical Magic
(56)Chicago
(57)Idle Hands
(58)Ghost Ship
()Hellboy
(59)Secret Window
(60)I Am Sam
(61)The Whole Nine Yards
(62)The Whole Ten Yards
(63)The Day After Tomorrow
(64)Child's Play
(65)Bride of Chucky
(66)Ten Things I Hate About You
(67)Just Married
(68)Gothika
(69)A Nightmare on Elm Street
(70)Sixteen Candles
(71)Bad Boys 2
(72)Joy Ride
(73)Seven (SE7EN)
(74)Oceans Eleven
(75)Oceans Twelve
(76)Sin City
(77)Identity
()Lone Star
(78)Bedazzled
()Predator I
()Predator II
(79)Alien V.S. Predator
(80)Independence Day
(81)Cujo
()A Bronx Tale
(82)Darkness Falls
()Christine
(83)ET
(84)Children of the Corn
(85)My Boss' Daughter
(86)Maid in Manhattan
()Frailty
()Best bet
(87)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(88)She's All That
(89)Calendar Girls
(90)Being John Malcovitch
(91)Sideways
()Finding Julia
(92)Maria Full of Grace
(93)Mars Attacks
()Without A Paddle
()Event Horizon
(94)Ever after
(95)Forrest Gump
()Big Trouble in Little China
()X-men
()X-men 2
(96)Jeepers Creepers
(97)Jeepers Creepers 2
(98)Catch Me If You Can
(99)The Others
(100)Freaky Friday
(101)Reign of Fire
(102)Cruel Intentions
(103)Cruel Intentions 2
()Cruel Intentions 3
(104)The Hot Chick
(105)Swimfan
(106)Miracle
(107)Old School
(108)Ray
(109)The Notebook
()K-Pax
(110)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(111)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(112)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(113)A Walk to Remember
(114)Boogeyman
(115)Eternal Sunshine Of a Spotless Mind.
(116)Hitch
()Back Door Sluts 9
()The Fifth Element
(117)Star Wars Episode I
(118)Star wars episode II
(119)Star Wars Episode III
(120)Star Wars Episode IV
(121)Star wars episode V
(122)Star wars episode VI
(123)Troop Beverly Hills
()Swimming with Sharks
()Trainspotting
()People under the stairs
()Blue Velvet
(124)Sound of music
(125)Parent Trap
()The Burbs
(126)SLC Punk
(127)Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
(128)Clockwork Orange
()The Order
(129)Spiderman
(130)Spiderman2
(131)Amelie
(132)Mean Girls
(133)Shrek
(134)Shrek 2
(135)The Incredibles
(146)Collateral
(147)The Fast & The Furious
()Fast 2 Furious
()Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
(148)Closer
(149)The Sixth Sense
()Artificial Intelligence
(150)Love actually
()Shutter
(151)Ella Enchanted
(152)Princess Diaries 1
(153)Princess Diaries 2
()The Graduate
(154)Constantine
()Million Dollar Baby
(155)Mallrats
()Party Monster
(156)Detroit Rock City
(157)The Goonies
()Y Tu Mama Tambien
(158)Pulp Fiction
()Wet Hot American Summer
()Crash
(159)Empire Records
(160)Notting Hill
(161)Pretty Woman
(162)Pirates of the Carribean
()White Oleander
So either I'm a movie buff or the biggest nerd on the planet... or a combination. Either way I'm pretty sure that I watch waaaay too many movies, and need to get a life. |
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| 10:27pm 07/11/2005 |
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The thought of someone else being where I should be makes me miserable. I never meant for things to go the way they have. It's kind of scary, how little control I've had in this whole thing. It was just supposed to be fun. I never meant to take it seriously. I never meant to care about it. I don't think I can do this again. Losing is just too big of a disappointment. |
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| 10:10pm 17/10/2005 |
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I sincerely believe that I must reeeeally enjoy torturing myself. I'm one strange motherfuck.
Today I went to the barn, and I hurt like hell. I hate my back. And I hate my sisters who are too small and too easily frightened to clean crap out of horses' hooves, so that I have to do it all by myself. And who are just too lazy/easily frightened to brush the horses and put on saddles and bridles. And I hate how I spend hours cleaning horses, and only get to ride for a half hour, because the sister who hasn't helped at all has tired out my horse by riding him while I'm still busy grooming, and he is so dead set against moving he stops in the middle of a circut and tries to board himself on school aisle.
On a happier note, Im in a really good mood because tomorrow is a half day, so I have Visual Imaging and thats about it. AND afterwards I get to go play with Dave, and maybe Teachout and Megan. And Im going to get my stereo put in my car tomorrow AND its payday. Best day ever.
Tomorrow I think I will be a cam whore because Im feeling that urge. wednesday I think I'll beg steph to go into the studio with me so a can shoot a roll of film. I haven't accomplished anything in forever.
Now, bed, because I want it to be morning. |
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| Another one of those good heart-to-hearts. |
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| 12:41pm 12/10/2005 |
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"Yeah, we're definately hot."
"Yeah we are! ...well... we are on myspace anyway. In real life we're kind of lame and smell bad."
"...yeah... We could definately use showers..."
"But we're seriously hot on myspace."
"Yeah, we're definately hot."
LMAO... patheticly true. |
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| Myspace is ruining my life... agian. |
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| 10:30pm 04/10/2005 |
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Ive been ignoring livejournal in favor of myspace lately, but since myspace is down, I guess the good old LJ will have to do. Whats new... lets see...
Anne's new car = gasm * 10
Everytime I drive it I fall a little bit more in love with it. She's a beaut. And she picks up chicks like a mofo. haha.
Let's see... homecoming week. Look at my school spirit! Can you see it?! ...Yeah... me either.
I AM however, excited about homecoming night. Mostly because I have the hottest date ever. Dave's such a doll.
Anne = broke, because cars = expensive. I owe my dad like $80 and I need to get my transmission fixed, and my brakes... <3
Senior pictures should be in, in about a week... whoooo hooo.
My mom however, is once again a no show on this one, and forgot to order her pictures. AND she's not coming down for homecoming because she's going to a scrapbooking convention. It's not like it's my SENIOR YEAR or anything... I feel the love.
I should be sleeping right now. So I think that's what Im going to do, because I don't want to be a complete evil bitch in the morning. |
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| Randomness. |
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| 03:13pm 28/09/2005 |
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mood:  cheerful
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Notes I passed to Megan during Visual Imaging, instead of working:
Dearest Megan,
I'll rip your mind out. I'll burn
your soul. I'll turn you into me,
cause I'm a liar.
Love,
Anne
P.S. Wear purple for me NOW!!
Dearest Megan,
I want to fuck your mom.
Love,
Anne
P.S. Are you inferring that the
devil is asian?
This, my dear friends is why anne should not be left unsupervised. These are the things she thinks in her spare time. |
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| I <3 High School... |
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| 03:57pm 26/09/2005 |
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mood:  amused
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"I fucking hate you because you are a fucking mother fucker!"
"You want to go to the movies this weekend?"
"Fuck you. Seriously. I. Fucking. Hate. You."
"We should see corpse bride."
"Friday night?"
"yeah."
Weirdest conversation I've ever heard, I tell you what. |
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| Stolen from the lovely Rin. |
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| 05:00pm 25/09/2005 |
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music: some country crapola.
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Firsts:
First best friend: Danielle
First Car: The purple bonnie. Whoo!
First kiss: Ben. He had a girlfriend. My dating life started out great. *rolls eyes*
First screen name: abercrombie_f50
First funeral: my great grandma's
First album: 80's idols. I <3'd that cd.
First pets: Amos, my shi tzu.
First piercing/tattoo: ears at 1
First big trip: Uhmm... I went to six flags when I was like 7.
First flight: 8th grade
First time skiing: I was too short to get off the lift. That's all I remember.
First concert: LeAnn Rimes. Yeeeees. I was like... 9.
First alcoholic drink: Green Apple Pucker. On Danielle's 13th birthday, whoo hoo.
First ticket violation: never had one!
First job: paid? Taco bell. Best. Job. Ever.
First myspace friend: Tom.
Lasts:
Last car ride: earlier with my sister, looking for a new car, and ghetto dancing. Whoo hoo! We're so f-ing cool.
Last kiss: friday.
Last time you cried: Uh... I don't know.
Last movie watched: "Wedding Crashers" with Dave Weds night.
Last food you ate: burger.
Last love: meh. As if.
Last temptation: Uhm... *refuses to comment*
Last item bought: My homecoming dress
Last annoyance: Shopping. I got really crabby.
Last shirt worn: Mt. Clemens class of 03 - red.
Last alcoholic drink: tecate negros
Last concert: Korn, I think.
Last phone call: Dave
Last time at the mall: yesterday.
Last friend you added on MYSPACE: I think Brad Hexum. |
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| 09:12am 24/09/2005 |
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mood:  excited
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Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.
I <3 life today. |
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